Surprise Passenger (Lulu)

I am reaching that crossroad in my life when I have to decide which way to take (see "The Crossroad"). It completely sucks but yet in some ways I already feel freer knowing that I am facing it and am that much closer to solving the question. It is definitely the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I always thought that losing my brother would be the hardest thing but I didn't have choices in that. There wasn't the worry about whether or not I was doing the right thing. I look around right now and know that all the pain my husband and kids are feeling is because of the choice I am making. Don't get me wrong....I know that the kids were hurting before I made the choice to separate from my husband but it was in a different way. My girlz are helping the kids and I through this tho....like I said in my crossroads post....they are riding shotgun and have already had to pull out the umbrellas.

I did not expect to have a surprise passenger tho...The Pot-Stirrer. Bex had told me I could come over yesterday after the "family picnic" I had with the husband and children. I really didn't want to step in on their family time because things are finally going so good for the two of them....but Jeff had told Bex it would be fine...so I did. It turned out to be the best evening EVER!!! The kids laughed and played. Bex, Jeff, and I worked on the patio. But what amazed me was the way he was with my kids. He was patient, understanding, and most of all FUN!!! Never once did I feel like I was imposing on their time. When the evening was coming to a close he even invited the kids and I to come back over today for the BBQ they were having with some of his family. It wasn't the typical throw it out there invitation that most husbands give to their wives friends...it was genuine and sincere.

We went back over today and it was great. At one point I got a phone call that upset me quite a bit. I just wanted to forget the situation for just one day but of course that couldn't happen. But Bex and Jeff were so great! I was actually done sobbing in less than 15 minutes (i think anyways) and back to the festivities. I really don't know how I would've made it thru the weekend without them. So thank you Pot-Stirrer and Bex for the great weekend and for helping my kids laugh despite it all!