Thanx Bex! (Lulu)

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My husband and I are seperating. It was my choice, not his....and we had to tell the kids! I needed my girlz more than ever. My kids needed the girlz and the kids more than ever. So we all went to the beach.

It had to be a hard day for Bex.....Tink, Zaad, and I all had really bad days and lets just say that our moods were not the greatest! Ok thats an understatement....Take the worst storm you can think of and then realize that compared to us it would be nothing more than a slight sprinkle! We just couldnt seem to let go, or forget, for even just a little while.

Bex kept me from going over the edge. She worked her ass off to try and bring each one of us out of our funks. I just kept thinking...my god this just isnt fair for her...and bless her heart for putting up with it all and working so hard to make us smile...even if its a brief smile. Every time I would get to the point that I would start thinking that maybe I should just grab the kids and go home and cry she would pop up with something that helped to distract me. My favorite was when we were all laying there and next thing ya know we are all getting squirted with a big water gun! Now that one woke me up!!!

By the time we all left I was actually feeling a lot better. Ok maybe not better but stronger! I actually feel a little more confident in my decision to seperate from my husband. I saw that despite the pain they were feeling over the seperation the kids were still able to laugh and smile. When we got in the truck to come home my big gray hair looked me in the eye and said "Thanx mom, I had a lot of fun, and I needed that!" I know its going to be hard...but I also know that in the end it will all be ok. No matter what ends up happening between my husband and I, the kids will be ok.

So thank you Bex for listening, advising, smiling! You put up with A LOT of shit yesterday from the three of us! And you still walked out the door stating that you would be home and available if any of us needed it. Most people would have turned tail and run!