What a long, exhausting week. All I can say is Thank You Girlz...
You are the best.
I can only hope that everyone has the friendship that we have!
Friday, May 14, 2010
Gratitude (Bex)
Posted by Bex at 5:06 PM
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Lulu
Rollercoasters suck!! I just want wings so I can fly!
Zaad
"Someone give Lu a Red Bull. Quickly."
Bex
"Fuck it. No really. No...Seriously."
4 comments:
Yes I like you, lots!!!!
Lulu and I were talking the other day and she asked me how I got thru the darkest time in my life. I choose not to think about it much anymore, but her question brought back a flood of memory and emotion.
My oldest son was dead at 16 from cancer, along with 30 other kids whose mothers I held, and funerals I attended.
My 2nd son became self destructive and ended up in prison. That was almost harder than Marks death because HE HAD a choice. I didnt expect my parents or sisters to forgive him for stealing from them, all I asked was please pray for him. They said they wouldn't waste their energy and would hardly speak to me. No help there!
Lulu was about to graduate which should have given me some joy, but she was a witness to a fatal accident so the police pulled her out of school during exams and toook her back to the scene. She was late with one paper so the school said she couldn't graduate even tho she was an honor student. I spent hours with the school board who agreed with me, and the teacher and principal who remained firm.
I love my spouse dearly, but he does not handle stress well. He wouldn't sleep or eat or speak to us. Just sat in a chair with a drink and cried. Poor Lulu would call home from school just to make sure her Dad was still alive. He almost became a bigger problem than the problem itself. I had no choice but to stay strong for my family. We were all hurting, and I hoped that some day this would all be over.
Thank God for my spiritual beliefs and my FRIENDS (I was blessed with so many of them) who did not judge, just loved and supported me. They let me talk and cry and offered lots of hugs. And they had problems of their own, we supported each other.
You have just 2 choices when bad things happen. 1. You can become hard and bitter, (never any joy there) or 2. You learn a depth of compassion that you never would have known any other way, which can bring a sense of peace, ahd eventually great joy. How can you appreciate being pain free unless you know what pain is?
And it has passed, Both my son and Lulu bring me such joy, I really admire the people they have become. I have seen the strength and compassion grow in Lulu as she has overcome her own adversities. I have also seen the way her confidence has grown from your friendships.
Cherish each other. It is obvious that you are all going thru your own time of crisis. Remember "this too shall pass" and life will be sweet again, but only if you choose it to be.
Its amazing what you remember and what you choose to forget. I remembered I was late on that paper but I had forgotten it was cuz of the accident (I will never forget the accident...just that it caused me not to graduate with my class). I also do not remember calling to check on dad...just that he was having a rough time. Your comment has really made me think. And your right...if you choose to see the brighter side of things or look for your lesson to learn in each situation life always does get brighter! I love ya mom!
Girlz....
Think how blessed and lucky you all are; you guys have two of the smartest and (ahem) BEST looking people that possess infinite wisdom and knowledge that we cannot wait to share with you all!
Shamom; GREAT post.
I'm thinking we need to open up this club to more members, with the ability to be 'Guest Posters'.
Shamom.....whaddya think?
Bumpster
Hi Bumpster - - - nice to share a post with you as you do sound very wise.
I'm a little behind when it comes to computers and the net, but so glad the girlz have opened their special space to us.
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