Here's Where I'm At (Zaad)

I hate vague posts, but the people that need to know what this means will.

I don't want to fight.

• I find it disturbing to my wa and it affects my serenity too much to do it.

I don't want things to be weird.

• Friends should be able to move past things and still have each other's back.

I don't to talk about people or be talked about.

• This one should be obvious.

I am not in a good place right now. I am lonely. I am tired. It is hard to be alone and keep a house and parent by yourself. I rely on my friends for support and understanding and I want this to continue. I do not enjoy arguing and I don't want to do it anymore.

That being said, I am sorry for my part in any of this. And I mean that sincerely (since the written word cannot always communicate sincerity, that is my disclaimer). From here forward, I will not argue with anyone concerning petty things where, obviously, expectations were misunderstood by multiple parties.

If things cannot go back to normal, that is something that will make me sad for a long, long time. But for my part, I am going to try and move forward and continue my friendships, strengthen them when and where possible, and treat everyone with kindness and understanding. It is something that I have always tried to do, but I get that I'm not perfect, my best is all I can promise.

The past couple of days have been hard, and that's where I'm at now. I don't know what else to say or do. My heart is heavy and I hope this will pass.