Repairing the Damage? (Bex)

After another great evening with the girlz... and the boys are in bed... I actually enjoyed the peace and quiet. Unusual for me. I thrive in chaos. My best work comes out under pressure and through unease.

Anyway... then the pot stirrer gets home from school and he comes over and sits in front of me and looks me in the face, completely serious.... and asks "How are you?" and i look completely dumbfounded and trying to figure out where there is going... He says "I mean are WE ok? I was thinking that after the last fight too much damage might have been done and is it repairable?" And he looked scared. to which i replied: "If it is what one wants, it can be overcome." And he held my hand and squeezed and didnt let go for awhile.

Which made me think... Can damage be repaired? Or do you always carry that pain like a statute carries a sign of crack that was superglued together?
I don't want to lose my husband. I don't want to lose the man i fell in love with.
I know he is still around; i see glimpses of him still here. One can put aside the mean, spiteful things that get said in a fight, right? Or do they just hide until needed for future use? If they stay hidden for future use, then what good does that do? to always bring up the past? Is the idea to forgive and forget and move on? I never have been good at that...

When I read TWM's post about his wife: and I fell in love again: reading that post reminded me of the days when my husband talked to me that way; we would have long conversations that were very poetic; and he was/is very passionate about somethings... and i would say that he even felt that passionate about me. Nowadays... it is hidden, if it is still there.