The Holiday (Lulu)

It was definately a crazy weekend. I thought I was going to have some time to spend with my parents but of course that didn't work out quite as planned. I didn't get there till after 7pm and by 10am the next morning my phone had already started to ring and I had to leave to pick up my big gray hair.

My gray hairs were supposed to be at their dads for the weekend, but of course, Mike and Cody couldn't survive a weekend without fighting. Cody started calling first thing Saturday morning saying he wanted to be picked up. It is so hard being in the middle of their disagreements. On one hand I know that Cody can dramatize things...after all he is a teenager. But on the other hand I also know the history between the two. Mike hasn't always treated Cody right. Quite often it is soooooo apparent that Lea is his biological child and Cody is not. The favoratism is quite awful...but he is the only dad Cody has ever known. I also know that Mike doesnt always speak the truth. He will say one thing then do the exact opposite. It's one of the many reasons for the divorce. So how do I know what to do or who is telling the truth. Do I pick him up or do I make him stay. I see Mikes point that if I pick him up, all I am showing him is that if he doesn't get his way he can just call, and mommy dearest will come running. And up until this weekend I have always made him stay. But they arent getting anywhere...I have argued with Mike for years about the favoratism....and I decided making him stay wasn't helping either. I did suggest that the two of them need a counselor. Someone other than me to be the mediator. I hope they do it.

Sunday was a blast!!!! Sarah showed up with TG and his boys....kind of one of those last minute things....and we had a fire and had a contest to see who could stuff the most marshmallows in their mouths at one time without puking...and ya still had to be able to say "Chubby Bunny"! Any guesses as to who won....ZAAD of course. Although I have always been the one teased about having the biggest mouth...oh wait I guess just cuz I never shut up doesnt actually mean I have a big mouth LOL. It was a great evening.

Monday was rough. It was one of those days when you can't help but look at where you are in life and wonder.....what the hell happened? This isn't where I wanted to be and I hate all the nastyness. I am not that person and I don't like that I am being forced to keep my guard up. What other lies is he gonna tell this time? Who else am I gonna discover has chosen sides? Why does there have to be sides anyways? Aren't the kids supposed to come first? Bex and her family was gone to Bumpa and Gma's for a BBQ so the kids and I snuggled on the couch and watched a movie. It was so nice to have a little quiet time with them.

Now the kids are back to school and they both said they had a great first day. Now I just gotta wait for Bex to get home so I can hear about her first day of work. I know it will be great cuz I have all the confidence in the world in her!