Emotions Vs. Logic (Lulu)

First and foremost....Sorry to write on top of ya Zaad....but you are the one that has shown me writing on this thing does actually help...and I needed to write (course I debated for about 15min first)

There are two sides to every situation

The emotional side.....and the Logical Side

Now I know the logical side is right....and I am following that logical side as best as I can through all of this

But that does not mean the emotional side no longer exists. You can try and forget it...you can ignore it for awhile...You can even push it to the farthest black corner of your heart for awhile but.....

The damn thing fights its way to the surface eventually and then it wins....only momentarily....but it still wins out. Then all those stupid tears that you have swallowed force their way back out and there is nothing you can do about it.

Today was that day. Every little thing seemed to set me off. I wanted to talk about it...but at the same time I did not. Even if I had chosen to talk to someone...I couldn't for the life of me decide who I wanted to talk to. There were bits and pieces that each one of my wonderful friends would understand...but then there were pieces that each one would also want to give advice on and I just wasnt in the mood for advice. I know that I have to follow the logical side...and I will...so I really didnt need advice. So in the end I just dealt. Spent a lot of quiet time in my room...and now I am writing. I am missing my kids something fierce as well so that doesnt help. I dont know how I am gonna survive every other week without them. I know I will cuz I have no choice...but still.

I also know that tomorrow is another day. I spent the day acknowledging my emotions so hopefully tomorrow will be better. Besides....My kids come home tomorrow!!! That always puts a smile on my face!!!!