- Today was my first official weekend day in my new house...by myself. I moved out of my parents house when I was pregnant for my big gray hair. So I have basically never been on my own. Yeah I have had a day or two where the kids were at friends and the husband was on one of his many trips...
- ...but it is different when you know that this is how things are going to be. Every other week my babies go to their dads, and I am now in a house by myself. I woke up this morning...all on my own! No husband slamming shit around, no kids running around making all kinds of noise...ahhhhh peace and quiet.
- And then more quiet, and more quiet....
- OK the kids can come home now! I decided the silence is enough to drive me stir crazy! I have had noise in my life for so long that I actually couldn't handle the complete and utter silence! Pretty sad huh!?!?
- Needless to say it made for an emotional day. I spent a lot of time just thinking about where I am in life...there were moments of happiness and triumph for finally feeling like I have succeeded at something...then there were the moments where I looked around and thought "this is sooooo not where I thought I would be at my age" But I did manage to get a shit ton of unpacking done...it is amazing what you can accomplish when there aren't any kids around to interrupt the task at hand! It is definitely going to take some getting used to but all in all it is good. I am feeling stronger inside already.
- (Fyi Zaad...I did type this as different paragraphs but my internet sucks and for some reason no matter how many times I try to edit this it keeps posting it as one long paragraph! So I do not want to hear a single word about how it looks lol!)
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Weird...but good (Lulu)
Posted by Lulu at 10:55 PM
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Yes, I fixed the post for you. And, like I mentioned earlier when I saw ya, I think it's a blogspot problem as I'm having the same issue! Bullets seems to work and hopefully the problem will be correctd soon!
On the other stuff: I so feel ya. Every word, every sentence, every emotion is something that made me go "ya...I totally remember going through all those different things..."
And you pretty much know how I feel about the whole thing: this is going to change you, and probably for the better. Yes, there will be times when it all feels overwhelming. But if you can learn anything from me going through it first, its this: take advantage of all the help your friends and family will offer you, both physically and emotionally! And don't feel bad about any of it.
Also remember: if I can do it, you can totally do it! SERIOUSLY.
Soon enough you will embrace the quiet. And just when you get used to it, the kids come home and throw your equilibrium off again. The constant re-adjusting is probably the hardest part. But - you're a gypsy now - you'll go where life takes you.
Thx for fixing it! ok I love your last line...I think I can handle being a gypsy lol. After all my parents are ShaMom and ShaDad!! I have to say, I never could have made it this far without each one of you girlz.
I can't imagine how difficult it must be (and scary) for both of you. But I do know how strong and smart you both are....and you both have parents that love. Looking forward to seeing you soon.
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