The Single Life No More (Zaad)

Ok.  I write every day, well almost, so it's really no biggie to start posting over here once in a while. Again.  As long as its a joint effort.  [That sentence fragment was my rant.  JSYK.]

Let's see.

So far, I am having a wonderful weekend.  It is just over half way done and JD and I have spent almost the entire time together.  We spent last night at his house with his son and daughter.  He has a great relationship with his teenage son and I really respect that.  It was refreshing to see.  Today, we went to the batting cages with him [where I watched - even though I wanted to hit really, really badly - but the potential pain in my back won out and I sat it out].  It was more fun than I expected.

This evening we had Sunday dinner at my folks with Lulu and Topher and that was a motherfucking blast.  NO KIDS anywhere.  It was awesome.  And Lulu and I actually got to spend some time together bonding over both being in fun relationships right now.  It was so bad, it bordered on sappy.  But, when it comes to spending time just Lu and I, that's usually how we roll.

Now I'm relaxing and writing.  What more could I want?

[A camper, a closer work location, not having to financially depend on alimony, dh not to move farther away, having a *history* with JD.......]

Yes, Bex, being single definitely has it's good points.  But you already know that the grass isn't always greener - in fact, it rarely is.  Being single is also stressful, difficult, lonely at times, and really fucking overwhelming.

This month marks 2 years in my house.  I can hardly believe it.  I really hate the thought of rushing JD and I into burning out, but not nearly as much as I am ready to be done being single.  Not that I want to get married next month or anything, but to have someone steady, nice, and reliable around?  Yeah, that sounds great.  I have hope right now and right now, I am really fucking happy.  Not just *eh, life is good* happy, but *Hey, life is grand, don't fuck it up, Sarah* happy.

But.  You know - we'll see. *wink*

Just sayin'.