I Want it All (Lulu)

The job is absolutely great! I love what I am doing and all that I am learning. I even found out that they are going to hire me from the temp agency which is completely awesome! But...

...yes there is always a but...I miss my kids!!!!

The drive is long, the hours are long, and I am still trying to get used to this whole thing called being alone. And I am not getting used to it as fast as I had thought I would.

It feels like I just get home and then its bed time for them. Then the last couple weekends they have gone and stayed with my parents. It was sooooo hard to let them go but I know it is what the kids would really like so I let them. Not to mention the fact that they only get to see my parents during the summer so how could I say no?!?! And then before I know it, it's time for them to go back to their dads (sigh....tears)

I just want to wrap them up close to me and not let them go anywhere or do anything! Yeah, I know, life doesn't work that way. They would just squirm away, roll their eyes, and give me that whole "MOOOMMM" thing.

Oh well, I know I can't have it all....but I want it!!!!!