Worried for Nothin' (Lulu)

Today was our Christmas in the LaBond plus the strays household lol!!! We did it early cuz 3 of the four kids have to go to the other parents home for Christmas day and we wanted them to have time to play with their stuff before they had to leave for 2 weeks. I can't say the events leading up to today were all that calm and peaceful but apparently I worried for nothing.

It's not exactly easy to join two families together for a holiday like Christmas, especially when there are younger kids involved. Each family has their own traditions. It's their household so I wanted to try and disrupt their ways as little as possible, but I also didn't want to completely forget mine. And don't get me wrong, its not that Bex expected me to...it's just not always easy mixing the two.

It also doesnt help that I was already an emotional wreck. I was worried about so many things. Much of which turned out to be due to a misunderstanding. I was upset about things that I really couldnt quite put my finger on till the middle of the night. I couldnt sleep cuz I just couldnt shut my brain off. So many worries, feelings, fears....So I decided to write. (No there is no post...I never published it cuz it was more for me to figure things out than to share) This really helped. I was able to finally pinpoint what I was so upset about and go from there on how to change it. Unfortunately it took a few hours so of course I never actually went to sleep last night.

At 7am I went upstairs to find my big gray hair, laying on the couch, wide awake! so of course as soon as he saw me he had to run upstairs and "accidentally" trip over the kids and "accidentally" wake them up!! (those were his words) And btw...had my kids actually made the bet with Bex they would've won! She said that she is always up first and would be waking them up...Wrong!!! Cody was up at 5am and just waited until an adult woke up to wake up the rest of the household!

so the kids opened presents and I fought back the tears. They were sooo happy and they were just so excited over everything! And here I was...afraid they wouldnt have a good Christmas. My kids even made me a picture collage...All by themselves (sniff sniff)

Poor Bex tho. Finally all the emotional crap got to me. I actually walked into the kitchen where she was and said "ok...gotta do this. I have some things to say and I am gonna get emotional, and I am gonna cry, and you are just gonna have to stand there and listen and put up with it for a bit!" Talk about a deer caught in the headlights LOL! But she handled it well and when I was done I informed her "there I am done and I feel better"

It was a wonderful Christmas...