Chrismas Already! (Lulu)

When I first filed for divorce I dreaded Christmas the most. It was never an easy holiday to begin with, seeing as my brother past away right before Christmas when I was only Lea's age. Then I had kids and I learned to love it again. One of the reasons I actually held off filing for these past couple years was simply because I never wanted to spend a Christmas without my children. This year is was decided that Mike would get the kids for the holiday. I figured that since next year I will be in my own place, then we could have the first Christmas in our new house together. So needless to say I didn't even want to think about it this year.

Then Bex changed that for me. Since Itchy goes to his dads this year, we will just celebrate a day earlier!!! It will be just like Christmas day...just the day before!!! So this weekend we actually decorated!! The tree is up, the stockings are all hung by the chimney with care, and the lights are even up outside!!! I am actually excited about it! I know Thanksgiving isn't even here yet but we had to work it out so that all the kids would be home to decorate. We even had Zaad's yahoo's to help decorate (since that lucky little brat is in VEGAS at the moment!)

And my big gray hair is the best kid in the world (despite the fact that he got kicked out of school for fighting) He looked at me the other day and actually said "Mom, I am not expecting you to get me anything this year. I know money is tight. It is more important to make sure Lea gets stuff so please take any money you were gonna spend on me and just spend it on her ok" Like that is ever gonna happen! One way or another I am going to make sure that BOTH kids are taken care of! They have been thru so much this last year and have probably handled it much better than I have! They deserve to have a nice Christmas!