Oooppssss... I meant to write sooner...

I know I said I was going to do better... But... I forgot... Well I passed the Bar Exam, but I am having trouble with Character and Fitness. Unfortunately, I have a skeleton or two in my closet (but don't we all...) And I didn't try to hide them... But apparently they think that I was not being 100% honest and forthcoming. So, I have to appeal the decision and go to a Hearing. If I don't appeal their decision, then I have to wait 2 years to apply to the Michigan Bar again. Go figure... I graduated Law School cum laude... I passed MPRE with a 94 (needed an 85 to pass)... I passed the Bar Exam (on my first try!)... And yet, apparently I do possess the requisite good moral and character to be accepted into the Michigan Bar... I am really not a bad person. I do have skeletons, only a two really... and I didn't really not disclose, I thought I was being as honest as I needed to be. Somethings really are private. It's really not fair... I mean really... Lawyers, Attorneys, Counselrs, Esquirers... whatever you want to call them, they don't have a bad reputation for nothing. Yet, minus two character flaws (bad at paying bills on time and the other is still too personal to divulge here) I have led a fairly honest life. I am not perfect, and by no means am I trying to even imply that. But the only two flaws that have a paper trail... the MBA believes that I was not honest enough about for them. Really? Before I got their decision, if it came back this way, I was going to let it go and reapply in 6 months (and be as honest as they want). However, if I do not appeal this decision, I have to wait 2 years to apply... and this is just to get my P number to practice law. This doesn't even guarantee me a job or work. UGH... My husband says that I have to fight this and appeal. And quite frankly, he is kind of right... I mean what do I have to lose, right? I can't practice as a 'real' lawyer right now. So, if i win this appeal, then i should be able to practice... if i don't i still right here in the same position. What he doesn't realize is that ever since I left 'the John' I have felt beat up, scrutinized, raped, questioned, and utterly defenseless. I am tired of trying to convince people that I am not a bad person. I am tired of defending my character or my judgments or my decisions or my words. TIRED. Yet, as always, I will continue the fight... I never really give up, even though I threaten it many times. It really is just frustrating that after 4 1/4 years of law school, passing the MPRE, studying for and PASSING the BAR Exam, I still may not be able to get my law license to practice ... at least maybe not for 2 more years.... Do I really have that much fight still left in me? I don't know... I have to file my appeal by May 21st. I will try to keep you posted.