The Next Chapter (Lulu)

Well I am about to embark on the next chapter of my life.

Over the weekend I finally got the call that I got the house I was looking at renting. The kids are sooooo excited! Their favorite part is the big yard (which the landlord has graciously said he would take care of because it is too much for a single mom and since he has the tractor anyways he will just do it!) He is so excited to have kids living in the house that he raised his kids in that he is going through and fixing up just about everything. I went there today to give him the rest of the security deposit and he went through a long list of all the things he upgraded! I have New faucets, shower heads, shutters, a new washer (the dryer is coming in a couple days), a new microwave...well you get the idea.

My plan is to try and move some stuff each night but since I work late it will really be only 1 trip per night. On Friday my big gray hair is going to see if his friend can stay the night and we plan on moving as much as we can then. I will have a little bit of time Saturday morning but the rest of the day is for the Rie-man since its his birthday : ) I figure by the end of Sunday I should be able to spend my first night in my house. I have so many emotions over this. There is such a huge part of me that is just so excited to finally be on my own...but there is also a part of me that is scared shitless. This is it...I am on my own and I gotta do this...I know I can its just a little overwhelming at the same time. I have not been on my own in almost 15 yrs (meaning without a spouse or live-in boyfriend).

Itchy breaks my heart though. He doesnt want his Cody to go. Those two have pretty much been inseperable from the moment we moved in with Bex. I promised him he could come stay the night though. And reminded him that its not like we are going very far. I am definitely gonna miss having itchy and reesy-pooh around all the time. They are always good for a laugh. They also help to fill the void when my kids are at their dads. It is going to seem so weird the first week I am in the house because its the kids week with their dad so I will be by myself.