Settling In (Lulu)

It may have been the craziest...most overwhelming...move in history but its done. I really didn't realize it was going to be so rushed and crazy!

Now I am doing the unpacking and trying to get used to living not only someplace new but living with another family. Luckily for me Bex and her family have definately made me feel like it is my home too. Every night I go down to my room and it is amazing how relaxing it actually is. I dont feel the sress or the tension that I used to feel before I moved. I am actually able to sleep now.

I know that there are going to be soooo many more hurdles to jump before this divorce is over and I find a place of my own but for right now I just want to focus on the fact that I made it through this one. (course the girlz may say it was a close call! I was an absolute emotional wreck!) I really thought that it would be easier than it was. I didnt really lose it until I was doing the final walk through. I just looked around and all the emotional past hit me like a ton of bricks. I could mentally see the door slamming behind me!

Now that I am moved in and have had a few days to process it all I can finally see that the door may have closed behind me but now I see that there is another door opening right in front of me. It may take a little while before I get to fully walk through it but at least I can see that it is there. My Girlz are there with me and I know that if I start to lose track of it they will help pull me back on track. Because of them I know that I can make it!!!!!!

I am going to be a strong, smart, independent HAPPY woman that can accomplish anything! No longer will I let a man or anything/anyone hold me back or keep me from believing in myself!